Now is 17 Feb 05, time is 1.47am le...I feeling Down for no reason...This few day i like day dreaming alot...like today i walked pass deb yet i dun know ~_~ !!! I dun know wat is happening to me... No mood to work n keep saying bored or sian, maybe going in ns le ba...Just now my 3rd sis and elder sis come home with my brother-in-law to pray...That was so noisy that i cannot do my work then have to go down walk walk...Hehe like very bo liao hor...I wondering how i pass my life time in this few year?? just lie to myself that i am doing fine or just fool around with fnds? Just now during my dinner i thinking of my past n future again, wat to do after my ns?? work or study...actully i being asking some question from raymond... but he told me not to listen to too much comments... he told me that E.g If i no mood to study for now why not just go in ns first n come out then think about study... yah that wat i think too... but i have my own dream...i thinking of become spf with that smart clothes...Too bad i dun think i have this chance le cause mostly my family dun agree with it...say that i am the only boy...damm like i want to be the only boy!!!Haiz...Headache about this... maybe i just go complete my ns first then study for my peg first ba...now i think about past i regret le...Doing those stupid thing E.g running away from sch, smoking, hanging around bully pple lar...That is like idoit without brain...Too bad is too late le!!! Hope now can save my future ba~!~! I want walk to my dream hoping that some1 can support me...Hope that after my ns i can walk closer to my dream...hope that no one will follow my footstep ba...Come to think about it parents alway helping childs....That may be right...