Today 30 march 05 3 day nvr blog le...being very tired n looking out for my spec.dun know wat to choose n this coming sat i going down to lanlab at ginza...10am leh.dun know can wake up anot..ken having match at there.going there to see...This yr Wcc is on this sat n sun..In singapore there will be 32 clans joining this WCC.ken have been training so long now is time for match.top 3 will be going oversea for match with other country...that will be hard...GBR cfm first or 2rd again...anyway ken i know u can make it...i support u.Lolx...sian kana cheated on last sunday...xiao gu ask me go fix for her n treat me eat dinner...in the end nvr buy dinner for me also.only her own!!wah lau i so hungry. help her do untill going to 9pm...lucky got ken help me fix too...if not will be more longer time.after that went to S.family for dinner...i treated ken n solomon cause they accompany me go xiao gu house n help to fix computer too...damm tired on that day...this few day being very late slp cause playing game n watch show...everyday also 5 or 6 am then slp...yesterday night untill now i still now slp yet...lolx...can tahan untill now...cause at 6.15am i went to bath n went for jogging at my house park.damm too long no run n become fat...can only run 3 round like stadium...then pull up only 6 time.still the same at ite...die liao lar...like become more worst.time pass so fast.next friday going to ns le...hope this time no need stay in for 2week...that time i go saw many ah beng sia...sian.hate to stay with them...talk untill so loud then still smoke somemore.later make me start to smoke again...i want control myself not to touch cigg anymore...last night watch chn 8 show.kaoz too touching n i pity the mother n son.so young must leave his mum...i watch untill tears auto drop out...too touching...tml saw liang after i jog n i on my way to buy breakfast...saw him sitting at blk smoking.he run away from sch again just because of teacher catch his hair.ask him cut yesterday n he nvr go cut then today dun want go.then he come my house watch i play game untill he fall aslp in my living room.lolx..slp like pig snore untill very loud...tonight sure slp early le not playing game.now feel slpy.but tahan to 12.30pm cause many nice show will be showing tonight...going to watch show le.9pm chn 8 show nice...can learn more about kidney n other $@#@....later 10.30pm also got nice show n 11.30pm also got...hahaha.too many show to watch.even forget to eat my dinner...today i haven been bathing many time...just to keep me awake.Tml maybe going to IMM to look for spec...must 1 week then can get my spec...time for show...NiteZZzz

Today 26 march i wake very late n i went to on my computer n found out that something wrong with it.think is my hard drive going to spoil...keep on scan disc...grandma call me at evening time say that she coming over to see me.ask me stay at home...about 7.40pm she reach my house n chat with me...she speak to me yet i dun know how to reply her...just keep on ok, i know n orh...cause i dun know how to speak...just know how to listen...haiz...she come visit me cause tml she going to genting...~_~...i also want go....but my passport expire.nvr go make new 1...somemore if i want go also very troublesome...after awhile she went over to her god sis house n stay untill tml before their trip to genting.i ask xiaoti to accompany to go down eat dinner n i only eat fried n beef burgler.after that we went for cycle.hehehe...cycle from jurong to jurong east...actully want to cycle further more...but xiaoti want go home watch show...then i follow him go back...chatting with solomon just now on msn.talking about tml..going out to meet xiao gu cause want help her fix computer...actully going to her house in day time...but she need peace to study for her exam at 2pm...so going to her at 5pm...she told me that after fix that computer she want treat me eat some where around her house ba.solomon tell that if ken go then he go...or liang also can.ask liang go better i go alone.walk abilt then say tired.omg...damm lazy...i think i go alone better...anyway just now cycle with xiaoti i damm happy...so long nvr go cycle liao.today at least got go out relax...Yawnss go slp liao.NiteZzz!

Today 25 march 05 i wake up at 2pm...went to wash face n brush teeth then play computer game...but cannot play due to patch version untill 4pm.then i went to play cs in sks server.they ask me join their clan.they even want to meet me outside n wanted to give me their contact no...but i reject them cause i going in ns n i not really gd...only today got form to play...at about 5pm i went to bath cause going out to Aljunied to pray my grandpa who dote me when i young.now i miss him...This end of yr my grandpa going to move house from aljunied move dun to where...idoit gov...want my grandpa move house to other...maybe they going to build house or other thing ba...now still waiting for new house for grandpa...After pray i wanted to go crc to find ken...he having match over there.but i lazy to go.so far...then take cab home from aljunied n eat my dinner about 8pm...damm hungry.today only eat 1 time only.just dinner...cause wake up late then nvr go down buy food eat...jie message me ask me next sunday come out to have family day...-.- ask me go bowling...i dun even know how to play...nvr play before since i 19 yr old...-,-!!still ask me go play...today i told her i dun want go n tell wat i want for my birthday present le...but she no reply me.^o^~~she also ask me faster help xiao gu to fix computer...so troublesome...i promise her this sunday i will go down help her fix...but jie tell me she come fetch me go...must be scare i dun want go..lolx...anyway gd...got pple fetch.like big boss!!Muahaha.Today is gd friday yet i dun know.at home for too long.ling just now come back n i ask her got any new cd anot yet she told yes but dun know wat cd.-.-!! asked her buy me Twins chinese version cd for me..lolx...1 more hr i going to ZZzzz le.now is time to hunt my item liao...NiteZzz

Today 24 march 05 i wake up early in the morning feeding mimi eat her medical n went to bath...after bath i sitting on chair day dreaming again...went to back to drink some HL-milk...feel strange with that milk.like spoil...but not expire yet...anyway i throw away...cause after i drink i felt stomache again...Damm!!after awhile i went to on computer looking at that screen thinking again...have been thinking wat to do for today.went to surf net n play game...rushing lvl for my new chara.just 1 week of siao playing now lvl 40 le.going to lvl 41 liao loh...rush like siao...hopping to use this chara to hunt my favourite blue moon earring.damm nice...but hard to hunt it...today like my bad day...hunting for whole day yet no item drop only lvl up...just now while hunting xiaoti idoit peeping on my dairy n post on gaming to show me.like no respect to me...peep on my dairy still want post on gaming to show me...still tell me he very bored then ask me chat with him.but i dun feel like chatting.just wanted to play my game alone...training lvl n hunting korean fan...start this chara n using this name just to let me remind of this person n dun forget her...but i think wont forget loh...i where got so easy forget things...kenny called me today asking me his dry good coming tml anot...omg i not working at sns anymore...they got gds anot is not my business anymore...after chatting with him...i just play my game like siao kia again...today dinner eat outside food again...eating da bian bu yao zhu rong...lolx...my favourite...after eating finish about 10pm jie call me to ask me got cook anot n i asked her buy me fries n burgler for me...lolx.today eat alot of foods...anyway very nice..yumm!!Yawns...now very tired...going to slp soon...time pass so fast.other 2week going ns liao...Sigh!!!pray n slp le...NiteZzz!!

Today 24 March 05 now time is 5am.i still not slp.just finish doing sit up n push up.now blogg then go slp.today stay at home nvr go out.just play game, surf net n watch tv...so bored...jie call me n say she know wat to buy for me liao...she told me that she went to biddg something for me...i wonder wat she biddg n spent so much $$ on it for wat...i chat with star again n this time she told me that if i went in ns n ask me to think if everynight before i slp.lying down at my bed chatting on phone with my love 1 that feeling is so great...come to think about it.yup!!that great.she ask me to work harder to woo the person that i love...she even told me that dun give up on study even i no mood to study now.ya that right.i nvr think of giving up on my study only feel like resting more longer...since i study for k1 to ite.now wanted to rest more longer before i start my new learning.now i can rest for 2yr before i start to study again...i think i giving up on spf liao loh...now i thinking no point to sign on with them since my ns left 1yr 6month...just finish it n went back to study.maybe more better then sign on...maybe after my further study then join spf again ba...star chat with me alot since i know her on gaming...in the noon i chat with solomon that idoit...ask him go swimming n even told him where we go yet he still ask me go cck there more better just cause of the playground...omg i want swim not play...wanted to go clementi swim...i know realise that bx told me to go swimming more offen so that my asthma will not come back...i now start to go outing like few yr ago.i think time have heal my wound since sec 2 untill now.now aday i feel that i eating more n more. i also think that i become more n more lazy.yesterday still thinking of going jogging.but end up staying at home eat n eat...i just eat apple too...kaoz now going to slp still eat...abilt scare that i will become fat with that round stomach...so i being doing sit up n push up to redure my weight n keep fit...i wonder wat i going to do n where i going to for tml...dun know still going to swimming anot...go alone is so sian...xiaoti sure dun want go.sure say i bo liao...anyway he become lazy since he went in ns...a very gd runner who get 1st in cross country now become so lazy that dun even go jogging or swimming...i still dun know wat i going to work as or study wat course when my ns is over...dun know yk n keming want to wait for me anot...we say before after ns we go apply for study together...now they went in ns easrly then me by a few month.yet i still at home wasting my time...just now watching show saw a new movie coming out on 31 march 05...sweetzz look nice.wonder who free to watch with me...saw twins cd come out in chinese version liao.wanted to buy too...lolx.damm so many thing want to buy...sian i blog untill here ba..stomache again...Haiz.NiteZzz!! ~~~^oo^Zzzz

Opss...Forget to tell 1 more thing...Deb u dun cut hair more pretty...Lolx

Today 22 March 05 i wake up as normal n went to bath.went to jurong east popular to see cd n i bought 2 cd.one is liang jingru n other is wang xin ling...that jingru super nice i like it very much but xinling not so nice-,-...after i buy went to meet deb to take vcd.she become more n more pretty le...today saw yet nvr talk to her.just smile n go le...abilt feel bad...wonder she think i dao her?actully is i not feeling well so dun like to talk cause scare i may lose temper.lolx!!!went home after that.rest at home for a few day...damm my weight went up to 54kg.go up by 3.haha...so happy...maybe i follow she say bite before eat ba...woo feel that i am lazy to go jogging since stomache...tml going to go again if not overweight liao...sometime i thinking life really boring.every1 is just study, eat ,slp, play,work n that the end of life...damm!!Time went so fast..going to april soon le.haiz...going ns soon...i remember that yesterday 1 of my net friend told me that nvr give up easy.if u give up mean no hope...try better then nvr try...coem to think about it...maybe few month ago my thinking is wrong...give up my study cause scare of MATH!!!remember mr sia say that for my course in poly math cfm have n must pass...-,-!!pass i dun think i can...hooo...anyway i make up my mind few month ago.now have to face it...Sigh!!now thinking of schooling again...why every1 is the same.when u r study yet dun like it.untill u finish sch le then think of schooling...~_~!!!now is so bored.everyday at home do nothning.lucky still got computer if not damm boring at home.everyday online chat with net fnd telling them my feeling for today n those problem that i facing it...know 1 new fnd who is 2x Female...chat with her for few hr talking about me..she teaching me how to woo gal!!Muhaha...lolx.feel bad for her.she play for so long n she get hacked by other pple.pity her...i learn more about woo gal liao..next time must try again.lolx...she told me that i must not feel shy.must have thick face.-.-!! anyway i tired le...going to bed le...NiteZzzz

Today 23 March 05 i have a bad dream.dream that a demon is killing all my fnds...i even dream that i wanted to kill that demon yet killed my own fnd.then even i even burn her body n she cant come back to life..in the end have to make a doll toy for her...stay in that toy for many yrs...n i wake up liao....@#@!# Idoit phone call....If not i can know who is that gal which i kill...lolx.must be thinking too much.watch too much show...going for pom pom liao.if not still feel like slpg.haha...actully i know who that gal which i killed in my dream...but i dun want tell out...lolx...damm strange dream!!!Hmm dun know wat to do today...rushing other lvl for my game ba or wait for starreez to online for chat bah...

Today 21 march 05 i wake up at 12noon n brush my teeth as normal n went to on computer to play cause i at home very bored...sian stomache...eat medical le then after few hr later pain again...just now rested for a few hr n get message from deb...sry.. so late then reply...actully i going to ah ma house to fix computer but dun feel well then no go le...maybe tml going to fix n thinking of buying wang xin ling cd honey!!dun know nice anot leh...still got many cd come out le.tml going to sembawang n have alook...sweets...so long no buy cd n vcd le.dun know got wat new show or new song nice...sian now i going back to slp again.if not tml cant wake up...sian going to eat pill again...Gd Nite...ZZZZzzzzzZZZZzzz

Today 20 march 05 i wake up early in the morning at 8am.cause stomache again.-,-!! so nvr go church with solomon n i eat some medical n went back to slp again.nvr thought that i slp untill 3.30pm then wake up...since i not feeling well so i nvr go my ah ma to fix that computer le.untill now still abilt pain...haiz!!stay at home whole day le...i think i eat too much ice-cream.very funny i forget my msn password...-,-!!now have to ask for help...omg headache cannot remember wat password for my email n asked for help yet fail to get it cause i dun know the country i put wat.haiz....tml then make bah..so late liao 5am le....lolx.time to slp!!!NiteZzz

Today 20 march 05 i wake up early in the morning at 8am.cause stomache again.-,-!! so nvr go church with solomon n i eat some medical n went back to slp again.nvr thought that i slp untill 3.30pm then wake up...since i not feeling well so i nvr go my ah ma to fix that computer le.untill now still abilt pain...haiz!!stay at home whole day le...i think i eat too much ice-cream.very funny i forget my msn password...-,-!!now have to ask for help...omg headache cannot remember wat password for my email n asked for help yet fail to get it cause i dun know the country i put wat.haiz....tml then make bah..so late liao 5am le....lolx.time to slp!!!NiteZzz

Today 20 march 05 i wake up early in the morning at 8am.cause stomache again.-,-!! so nvr go church with solomon n i eat some medical n went back to slp again.nvr thought that i slp untill 3.30pm then wake up...since i not feeling well so i nvr go my ah ma to fix that computer le.untill now still abilt pain...haiz!!stay at home whole day le...i think i eat too much ice-cream.very funny i forget my msn password...-,-!!now have to ask for help...omg headache cannot remember wat password for my email n asked for help yet fail to get it cause i dun know the country i put wat.haiz....tml then make bah..so late liao 5am le....lolx.time to slp!!!NiteZzz

Today 19 march 05 since i come back from breakfast i been walking around in the house n playing game untill 11.30am then went to slp without off my computer.damm piglet...slp for afew hr n wake up at 3.30pm...then went to bath.saw jie using computer surfing net n i found out my nail too long n i cutting them while waiting for my turn to use computer.kaoz...dun know how to cut it nicely n need ask mum help me cut...hehe!!still like young kid.hooo...now damm tired n going to slp le.tml still need to wake up early to meet solomon.hehe~~going to church with him at woodland.so far...haiz still have to rush to bukit merah to help fix that idoit computer...waste my time helping them fix.they need pple to teach them how to take care of it...hire me ba...i charge cheap...1 hr for $7 can liao...lolx!!woohoo long time nvr eat ice-cream liao...just now found out got some n i eaten all of them...lolx!!!like nvr eat before...i think tml afternoon will be rushing back home to feed them eat medical n myself...just now ken , xiaoti n me chatting at msn n xiaoti show me wat he say to deb.damm kpo...anyway thx xiaoti...i know since i young u been taking care of me all the time...but i think i grow up le...time to learn how to take care of myself...only something which i dun understand...untill now about 2 to 3 yr liao...u still remember how ling ling n yimon look like ?? i dun remember yimon look how liao...anyway ty all the while!!!May god bless u...Nite!!

Today 18 march 05 since last night went to liang house untill 7 am then meet xiaoti n we went for breakfast at g4y coffee shop.Lolx...now 8 am le waiting for ken n liang then we going to have a friendly match...ken want to train me...ops...by the way xiaoti told me that he email deb without telling me...dun know wat he say in that email.hopefully not rubbish!!i also heard xiaoti say he receive email from deb n i dun believe untill xiaoti show me n found out that mail have virus in it...but i dun think is deb send 1...maybe got virus in her com yet she dun know about it...anyway the matter is over...will not talk about it anymore...now abilt tired...but dun feeel like slpg.later wanted to go swimming leh..idoit ken dun want accompany me go swim.maybe going to fishing with yue han or play game ba...tonight going to rounding with bike...hoho...


Empty body that without soul
May u healthly n happily

Today 18 march 05 i staying at home the whole day cause i having stomache since last night untill now.yesterday went to gym with yue han at jurong sport complex...at there i cant do much jogging with that machine..normally i can jog for 6 round then stop...yesterday only 3 round n other machine which i used to do when go there also cant lift it..omg must be these few days late slp n early wake up ba...planing to cut my hair since letter not here yet.but now canot cut le...going in in 3 week time...haiz...damm fast.yesterday i called police hq to ask about my apply yet they told me i have to go for army for 3 month bmt then they can pull me in.but not 100% i can get in...kaoz...like this no diff whether i got get in anot...might as well i complete my ns then go study better...then join them...any way i left about 1yr 6month time...hehehe...soon...sian this sat have to go down to ah ma house to help fix that computer...not my com why must i help to fix...so troublesome...waste my time.hate to go there cause they will naggg at me.got do this anot got do that anot...wah kaoz...i do wat also want to care...old liao then want to care why not care when i young.idoit...faggot...still thinking of going out with yue han to fishing or maybe wanted to go rounding in singapore...Lolx! just now ken called me to go down for some chat n i went down for awhile.awhile more i going out to liang house...they wanted to play ma xiang.i know if i play sure lose 1 loh.so later i think i just slp or watch show ba...tml dun know want do wat...just now still planning with ken about buying bike( dun get wrong idea) is bicycle not motorbike...lolx!!ken say he if i want buy then he follow me buy but he need lent from his mum...how about me leh.take $$ from dad or wait for my sns pay...wah lao untill now still dun want pay back...wanted to work leh...haiz!!!still got lots of thing wanted to buy.hehe...come to think about it.i still not save any money yet...when will i save leh?? during ns ?? or work ?? haiz...let me enjoy first ba..wanted to go oversea leh...want to go taiwan, aust,japan,kor n hk....hope during my ns training i can get to go taiwan or hk...wanted to buy thing from there...NiteZzz

Today 16 march 05 i wake up at 3.45pm going to 4pm.so late!!i went online to play game n listen song...while doing that i feel like cycling...chatted with solomon at msn n cause of him i lose my temper to ken...that idoit make me dun feel like going to sentose.i told ken i not going sentose liao n even scolded ken for nothning...Bah!!untill now i still nvr talked to him.sian tml cannot go cycle at night liao.no bike n no mood to go liao...i try to call police hq just now but no one pick up that stupid phone...trying to ask why so long still not get any news from them...i stayed at home from i wake up untill now...went for some jogging but that damm boring...jogging alone.haiz!!!tml maybe going out for walk walk ba....still not sure going where n when going out...cause still have to feed my dog eat medical...kaoz..so troublesome...my sis bring mimi to see doctor cause due some skin problem.haiz tml have to help to feed them...damm!!!wanted to CYCLE...maybe tml going to look for bicycle or going to buy 1...sian my com kana virus yet i cannot remove it n some idoit spyware also cant remove it...Sigh!! life is so boring now...nothning better to do...Gtg slp liao so late le...

Today 15 March 05 went to clementi swimming with solomon...damm tired.i yesterday night send my resume for Sales Associate in a jewellery company.haiz!! now they call me for interview also no use liao.other thing make me damm sad my ns letter come again.kaoz..ask me go back in 8 of april 05 at 8am again...sam come to look for me to hao lian to me that he pop liao...haiz...all pop n i still just wanted to go in...yk n keming 8 april having spf law exam.if pass then pop liao...left me alone again.sian...wah lau i apply for spf so long liao still no news...anyway if i go in ns still not come then nvm le...anyway i just need to go for ns for 1yr 7month like that ba...cause i late go in by 2 month n still got clear leave n holiday...about left like this...left 3 week time to enjoy...hehe plan for my this few day le.tml maybe going out with ken mum n ken to walk walk...then thur going for outing...Sweetszzzz.long time no outing liao.this outing is go cycle bike at night.heh...then friday more sweet loh.long time no go sentose liao.this friday go swimming at beach n stay over night at there...dun know there change to how...just now went to see hp.wanted to change to nokia 7610 or 6260.kaoz damm exp.liang change new hp le.change to 7270 damm ugly n camera also sux.when will it be my turn har...wah lau so many thing wanted to buy...idoit sns.still dun want return me my pay...kaoz...this few day everynight slp at 6 am then wake up at 11 am or 12 pm...feel that my nose going to block again...have to see doctor soon.think asthma coming back.went to swimming just now but forget how to swim.lolx!now swim hand nvr move 1 n no need to come up 1...hehe...going to slp le so late liao..later tml cannot wake up...NiteZZzz

Today 13 March 05 slpg nicely then being call to wake up...aunt call me to go her house help her mix computer n follow her go computer fair...invite me go!!!lolx...like inviting God..hehe..went to her house at 4pm then help me mix..kaoz so many virus in her computer.i only fixed 1 only...the rest i cannnot remove it.cause need other tool programme to remove yet i dun have...so i ask her reformat her computer...kaoz want me help her reformat.sian have to find 1 day go down help her fix...went down to suntec to see IT fair...i saw 1 laptop very nice love it very much...but exp.ask jie to buy help find out where got sell it n going to save $$ to go buy it...jie help me to look for job while waiting for ns letter.lolx...going to sell jewellery.lolx...saleman at jewellery shop...damm tired...this few day i being at home late slp untill 6 am just to rush lvl for my new warrior.(spearman).lolx...my chara name very nice 1 loh...wanted to go swimming tml but no 1 accompany me...looking for job now...if saleman at jewellery shop cannot then go look for other le...Damm Tired.slpy le...NiteZzzz

Today 11 march 05 i went to amoy quee camp this morning and i late cause cannot find that place...hehe...miracle fall on me.i reach there n saw raymond n jie was ald there to send me...but when i go in with them n i report the sir ask me go home no need ns le...Lolx!!!I no need ns le...so happy...now happy untill not tired le.yesterday sad untill cannot slp now too happy...muhahaha.....must be god bless me.cause this morning i write my blog before i went off n even say God Bless Me...lolx....so happy...no need ns le..btw when i reach there i saw all r tall n fit...kaoz.i even chat with 1 sir n he told me starting is very xiong n after 3 month will not le...actully they ask me go home cause i pass my national physical fitness n get silver award.so no need to stay in for training...now have to wait for other letter from them.think must be months later ba.can look for new job le...heh!!

Today 11 march 05 is the day i going to my ns.at 6.45am i going out of my house to there..I damm scare of being alone over there n now my heart beat was beating very fast...now time 6.25am le n i not slp since yesterday night untill now...xiaoti accompany me untill just not long then he went to slp le...untill now i still not slpy maybe because i scare.scare that i may miss home over there n may cry out in one corner...haiz!!!if want find me sms me or call me during 10pm-11pm at night or wait for me to call u ba...i gtg le if not late le...TakecareZzzz...God Bless Me!!!


SADNESS....

Today 10 Feb 05 i going down with ken to CNC at toa payoh for CS match.Long time no play Match le.Today is my last day of playing n helping ken too.nvr think that ken can be at cnc training cs...cause CNC is for those who is very pro pple play...kns...jie called me asked me want go out dinnner tonight.they want celebrate for me.something like farewell dinner ba...but i dun want go...hehe.cause i know if i go jie cfm will nagg at me or ask me about the apply for spf.today also last day of learning IT programme.going bring that book out with me later...now then i know my camp is behind nyp only sia...lolx...yesterday i cant get slp again n i stay up to pack my bag for tml camp...my heart beat jump very fast when thinking of tml...maybe i scare ba...sian tml need to wake up at 5.30 am to bath n go le.want send me go ??i packed my bag which only have 4 t-shirt, 4 short pant, towel, shampoo,shower,toobrush,slipper n last under clothing..HAhaha...like going for chalet.~_~!!!!waiting for ken now cause he still schooling n xiaoti is still slpg.lazy pig...I wake up so early today cause i dream again.this time i dream of ns then wake up le...stress!!!thinking of ns make me scare cause my unit so xiong...i scare cannot tahan...today also my last day of hope to get letter from spf.shan just come back from work n now slpg no chance to chat with her before i go ns ba...she look kinda tired after the night shift...going for pom pom liao...then go meet ken.I really Miss u...DO u know??

Went to toa payoh with ken n liang whoo....they so pro...went there to eat chicken chop.lolx...saw xiaomei with her fnd chatting...today so unlucky when walking to MRT my neckermann slipper which is my favourite spoil...hurt my leg too.lolx.went round to look for it at there but cant be found anywhere at there...then went down to clementi to find.also cannot be found.manZz...have to wear that spoil slipper from toa payoh to ginza n from ginza to jurong...omg that hurt my leg n so paiseh...even going to fall down when walking with it.lucky ken hold me.heh found my new neckermann at jurong.some where around my house...lucky can be found.if not no slipper wear le.this i bought white colour.actully last time wanted to buy white too but canot be found any where...now found le.hehe!! I started to feel bored cause tml going in le.trying to find some1 to chat just now.yet all not at home or nvr pick up phone...at last i finish that IT book furing just now trip to CRC n from there to find my slipper...althought i have some page which i dun understand but still can cope up...my dad told me that tml i need to go out of my home at 6.30 am...so early n i dun feel like going at all...totally changed my life from now onward...now going down to meet xiaoti n ken n liang to chat about ns...sian.no chance le.spf letter not receive yet...haiz!!!!No chance to freedom n cant write blog or surf net neither play game or watch vcd too!!I will be Back soon with my bota head...lolx...sure funny with bota head...i post my small bota pic on friendster to show my nice bota head.haha...if want find me call me at night about 10-11pm or sms me...i will reply soon when saw that...Gtg out le...See Soon..Takecare Too...work hard...
Life is so miserable to me
Cast a Cold Eye On Me
On Death
On Life
Knight
Pass By

Today 9 Feb 05 i went to borrow IT Book from wenyong n i study for it while shopping for bagg...this is the first time i so hardworking self learning on IT.i damm like it loh.still learning halfway...soon i will post my own blog skin on it...i clever hor.just study left then 1 day n i learn how to create background n background music.but due to some problem n cannot post my background n bg music.untill now still study loh.hardworking right...went down to junction 8 with ken n solomon.so long no see solomon le.he learn bad liao.haiz...learn how to smoke liao...feel sad for him.but i try to stop him ba.stupid ken n liang.must they 2 teach 1...knn!!!went to walk the whole building today.chat with wenyong while learning that IT programme...looked so many bags.only like a few but dun know which to choose...i so maru again...like a gal baggy...lolx.even asked the salegal that baggy for guy or gal.lolx...she told me boy n gal also got buy...but that look like gal bag...went to fila shop n saw 1 bag look nice n i bought it for 50 buck.that bagg must be enough for me to put all my thing le ba...went to ginza for dinner n bought slipper n lock at there too...lolx.my slipper damm g4y loh...but nvm light can le...while having dinner dad called me n the way he talk to me is fierce.ask me go home.he need to talk to me.i asked ken follow me go back cause i scare.lolx..damm fierce when he angry...when reach home. he ask me i pack my thing ald anot...yet i say yes.but actully not at all.he told me my unti very xiong...asked me to look for doctor to take my report so that i can tranfer to other light work unit...lolx.i lie to them say i ald recover le...cause dun want them to worry about me...jie called me too.asked me about spf letter.haiz still not receive yet...i miss some1...chat with pei juan just now on msn.lolx...she asked me who that person in that pic...lolx.told her that is a gal who is pretty n cute n i trying to woo 1...she laugh n say wah...dun know for wat...feel strange i like not going to ns.like going to chalet.haha...honestly, i very scare but no choice.haiz...i hope some1 to support me n care for me...this make think of 2 yr ago.i missed that chance now regret.anyway if i not receive letter from spf. i just finish my ns for 2yr n come out study.tml is my last day online...hehe...ken told me he will miss me loh.cause everytime only we 2 together n chat or play game...now i gone for ns n no time le...he miss me!!!lolx....i missed some1 in my heart too yet dun think have chance le.haiz!!!But still will try my best to woo her.haha...how i wish that no need ns that will be great...wah today so tired...tml not going to slp cause i know i sure cannot get slp in camp on first night...so going make myself tired then go in will slp...bota soon...Muhahaxzxzz...tml going to meet ken n accompany him go out...haiz. going to pop le lar...everytime go out with him away i pay for dinner...today spent 50 buck on dinner too.spent about 150 buck today...lolx...pop le lar...Tired le.....NiteZzzz...I MISS U.....U KNOW ???

Today 8 Feb 05 i went to swimming at clementi with yuehan n simon...simon at there slp for sometime.bah!!pple go there swim yet he slp.hehe i at there slp too..hahaZz...hmm feel that my skin start to turn black.when i going to bath i saw rx at there.went to jp after swim to find bag...cannot be found anywhere at there.haiz!!must be bought by tml cause that baggy is for ns use de..have to throw all in that baggy...tml going to junction 8 n causeway point to look for it...maybe ken accompany me go find..that idoit wenyong called me today, ask me go his sch eat then he accompany me go...nyp leh...i go for wat...if last yr bx at there maybe i go.still trying to find out how to edit html for blog.not enough time to learn or find out liao...went down to sns pass deb that photo n buy some HL milk, Meiji Coffee Milk n tootbrush...hehe.eaten my last beef fried rice just now...haiz..still got slipper haven buy.i wanted to look for very light slipper.in ns have to put all tootbrush n slipper in that army bagg...if i bring my this slipper that will be too heavy.lolx.play cheat bring light 1...hahaha...2 more day to go...xiaoti say thurday night want celebrate i go ns..siao go ns also want celebrate...i hate ns...cause of ns make me lost alot of things...too bad i have to return them 2 yr anyway...only early or later...this morning aunty called me while i slpg yet i lie to her i wake up le n cht for awhile then i went to brush teeth.half way other aunty called me again. just to ask me why i when i young i told her i want be ns machining when seving them.but now i told her i want to have my own career n i choose spf as my career.that is i young i told her...too young dun know any thing.anyway i learn machining course yet i dun like it.only force myself to learn for 2 yr...actully in those 2 yr i one week 2 day nvr go sch for lesson...but in 2rd year yongkang n keming told me if i dun like wat for i study.they even told since i study for 1 yr why not finish it...so i force myself to finish n start to go school everyday...actully i own them too much...not them i think untill now i still not complete my study or quit smoking...maybe they r send down by GOD to help me...lolx...Ops so late le...NiteZzz...since i grow up i thinking of study other course in dover after my ns if can.NiteZzz

Today 7 Feb 05 i wake up at 1pm.went down to Creative company with guohao accompany me.lolx..get 1 new ear phone for free..the person say i too handsome so give it free to me...muhahaha!!!No lar the person ask me i first time come here, i answer yes loh...then he ask me wat i want...i just say i want buy new ear phone.he ask me why want buy...then i say my 1 just wanted to spoil n just bought that mp3 about 1 month...then he say since i first time come he give it free to me n only this time...lolx...he told me the ear phone cost $10.50...if i want buy...lolx...since it free why spent $$ buy leh...lolx..Went to Gym during evening time...meet yuehan go jurong east sport complex for some training bah...i scare of this coming friday...8am must be there fall in le...dun know who will be sending me go leh.i think i will be going alone ba..Hope have some 1 accompany me go...maybe can give me hug.muhahaha...later not hug is cry...lolx..tml going for swimming.hope some1 accompany me go swimming...about 5 yr nvr swim le.dun know still can swim anot...later cannot even float..hahahZzz...God Bless Me escape from friday ba...lolx...just wish to faster complete ns n freedom coming toward me...maybe after ns i become more fit n healthly ba.not alway sick n need see doctor...i thinking of going for operation...but jie told if i nvr take care properly i can get back easy...Haiz..dun care so much.3 more day to enjoy myself...opss.almost forget 1 thing.forget to pass something to deb...lolx..have to pass her before friday...if not have to wait untill i come out le hor...OMG so late le...time to slp le.if not get up late again...i want go swimming...lolx.NiteZzz

Today 6 Feb 05 i wake up 2pm...pick up so many call during i slpg...all call from guohao n bai wen...wake me up to go buy ns stuff...kaoz called me more then 10 time...but i nvr throw my temper to them leh.strange...maybe too tired untill cannot talk le ba..damm tired...today went to jp court to look for mp3 ear phone.but cannot find...asked deb.she say maybe creatvie company got sell.went to buy some shampoo n shower...i dun know choose which shower more better.at home use dove...but go there use dove or lux...there i choose dove.smell more nice ba...lolx..dun know still can take my time bath anot...5 more day to go...i sure cannot slp at first night...maybe call some1 to chat if can call...lolx..tml going to creative warehouse to look for it...hope wake up early cause meet guohao at 2pm.lolx..i still waiting for letter.damm scare i may cry on the first day...lolx...btw i at jp buy 3 T-shirt.white, black n red..haha.red again...arrgg...bai wen got mc for 1 month no need go back camp.so gd!!just cause he hurt his hand at training...damm...hope i dun get hurt...omg i hungry again...haiz!!find some food eat le...NitezZzzZzzz

Today 05 Feb 05 come back home at 9am n start to surf net n listen to songs...meanwhile message deb.asked her want go steamboat...while waiting for reply i fall aslp at computer table...Bah just slp like that...slp for 3 hr only.wake up after phone ring.yongkang called me to cfm with me wat time meet n where...at the same time i receive message from deb too.she cant make it...haiz!!!abilt sad...6 more day to go.meet yongkang n cheng at jurong east at 3.30pm yet i reach at 4pm...then went to suntec for spf career talk...i kana cheated by keming...that is ARC career talk...ARMY, NAVY N AIR FORCE...not spf...sian...make me disappointed...after staying there for sometime.went down to orchard for dinner...too bad too many pples...keming n zhiyong meet us at there too.we went to HMV cause i wanted to look for cape n shirt...too bad dun have that cape i want...about 8+pm went back to eat dinner at taka.wah just 1 dinner i spented $50...total spent $238...just on 5 person...after dinner keming n yongkang teach me basic spf selfdefence...that hurt me alot.hehe i know how to selfdefence liao.dun play play loh...lolx...nvr know that defence is so gd...but hurt alot...tml going to west mall to look for my mp3 ear phone n some ns stuff...maybe meeting cheng for some jogging.ken called me just now n ask me to come down chat...but i know that if i go down sure nvr go home liao...so i lie to him i very tired...actully i damm tired since last few day cant slp well n yesterday night nvr slp just cause doing the blog at ken house...still dun know how to edit after so many hr...Bah!!damm Stupid hor?? wah saw alot of pple with nice background n nice song.still got wishlist..bah mine just very common blog...Not sure tml going to church anot...Ok i going for Bath n Slp soon le..NiteZZzzz

Today 5 feb 05 i stay at home training cs with xiaoti.now my skill r coming back to last time...maybe better ba...since pass 8.30pm. i went down to jp alone to buy some foam cleansing.hehe...6 more day i going in ns le...i start to scare of going ns.after i went to jp, i went down to ntuc to buy some milk to milk n i suddenly remember huisi n yuehan...long time no see them le.i went to find them n stay at their house for some chat n i start to think of changing my blogger skin n add some other things...but i forget how to make html le.lolx...my neopet password forget too...cannot get from there too...must find some1 to teach me.i at their house think n try for very long.now time 3.14am le...still at their house trying...ken called me.ask me go meet him about 30min more.i leaving their house cause they slpy le n went to look for ken n have some walk at that park...went to 7-11 for some noodle.damm hungry...at ken house i found some nice song n get them in my mp3...at last got 100 songs le.KaoZ at huisi house my ear phone almost spoil...her idoit dog so naught.now time 6.51am le i still not slp.maybe cant slp scare or thinking of something else...other few more hr i going home to bath n going out soon...hehe.steamboat tonight at marine bay...any1 want go too ??call me... the more the merry...dun know wat to wear...white shirt or red shirt? jear or short pant?? slipper or shoes ?? haiz!! still must think so much...maybe white shirt ba..make me look fatter...kaka..i dun know wat time the spf career talk start...how har?? still waiting for letter.wanted to buy some clothes yet dun know how to choose.some gal can tag along with me to shop??i long for many thing yet dun get it....today at so bored.take my shirt to wash...bah!!dun now how to use that stupid washing machine...then keep trying.after sometime it work n start to wash le...but how to stop n open the door...i use force but cant open...message to jie yet no reply...Kaozz my leg numb...omg hate that.untill now i think my shirt still in that machine washing bah...7am le yet dun dare to slp scare cant wake up early...not going to slp ba...God Bless Me!~!~!~ Let me Go spf or Dun Let me go Ns bah..hooo.long time no pray le.since nvr go for bb untill now about 5 yr liao...maybe time to pray bahh...In the name of jeuss, bless me go in spf, healthly n happily working toward my career or study...Amen!!NiteZzzz~~~Anyway not slpg le...if saw me at anywhere.must call me if i not calling u...maybe when u see me i look like panda...lolx...btw wanted to see sunrise...that nice...Remember to call me if u want go steamboat...(any1 also can Go)...

Today 3 march 05 i wake up at 1pm.die liao lar wake up so late...no 1 called me wake up...Went out with ken n xiaoti today.we take cab to ginza n eat dinner.i eat beef fried rice again..damm nice!!!after eating we called azhar to come over...we went for some gaming at there n i went to buy some coffee milk for them to try...share 1 big bottle...after gaming they went for smoke.i see them smoke yet i dun, that feeling look strange.last time smoke together, play together n eat together...that damm funny.everytime i slp they sure like idoit.lie to me say morning liao...damm!!!ask me wake up to play...Kaoz..i damm like pig.slp untill like pig...got banket also no use...bah!~!Miss last time young time...since i quit smoking.seldom with them le...now feel even more lonely...haiz!!Want to look for more fnds to chat with or maybe looking out for gf ba...lolx!!but have to wait for me...cause going in ns le..next friday.damm fast...still not receive letter from spf...if cannot go spf.i damm sian...but maybe gd for me ba...can faster come out...hehe sat coming...going to suntec for spf talk.after that going for steamboat with yk,km,sam,cheng n zhiyong that idoit who away lie to us n own me $$...~_~so long liao i think he forget liao...miss sch now...last time at sch so many nick!!! e.g--> joy , corn , xiaojie , slpgbeauty...untill now they still call me joy...just because my earring...actually they got call me 1 last nick call mp...(money printer).cause everytime i buy vcd n treat...lolx...tml dun know do wat at home...i miss 2b...dun know how she is now....heard that she now very hardworking studying.that gd...If time can go back 10 year ago...i sure change alot...better then now regret so much...anyway working hard for my career...hope no regret...azhar asked me why i still dun have gf untill now...but i nvr answer him...got alot of thing he dun know...only xiaoti n ken know me well cause everytime i sad will only tell xiaoti then ken 2rd to know...my first break up i cry untill find xiaoti out for drink.lolx...damm funny...first time cry cause of gal...that really sad.Haiz...Hope to have gf...lolx...damm just saw huiying online.chat with her awhile n she offline le...damm, she still the same like to disture me...asking me some stupid thing...am i wooing some1?? YES...but i tell her nop...lolx.shy to say out ba...i hoping to go spf...but xiaoti say i stupid...he say i got no life to spent the money...dun know why...NiteZzz

Today 2 March 05, yesterday night i cant slp again.sitting down eating the whole box of rocher...about 2.30am i called mui keow for some chat...she was slpg ald yet wake up chat with me...while talking halfway i feel blood.lolx...my nose bleeding...then have to lie down to stop it...woohoo so long no bleed le...dun know why after some chatting i feel very tired.i think is my nose bleeding ba then sort of blood...lolx.i tell mui keow i going to fall aslp n she say ok then put down on phone...then i fall aslp right after i put down phone...forget to spray medical...about 5am i woke up.cause i heard cat sound..bah!! small little kitten shouting outside my door, make me cannot slp.have to bring it to other place then come back n slp again...i so long nvr slp untill like pig le...untill 3pm then wake up...hehe!!then all day sitting on the computer listen to sound n doing nothning.just watch at the screen.sometime i thinking games can be boring too.cause today i sitted whole day dun know wat to do with that game...Arrgg...Going to be rotten...This sat at suntec have police career talk n can apply from there too...but dun know why i feel scare...maybe scare to go out alone ba.going down to have alook...hope some1 free to follow me...sian i think i going to fall sick le...throat start to pain le...worry too much thing.stress...still dun know when i going to buy some stuff for ns...hope some1 find me out for walk walk or shopping ba...At long got go out can le...Better then staying at home nothning to do...Haiz!!!NiteZz!! (Shou ai wo , zai wo de er bian dui wo shuo...) Nice ??LolZz...NiteZzz

Today 1st mar 05 simon accompany me go police hq to apply for spf sign on...i talked to that guard nicely he like sing song like...like on huh!!!!He like idoit...waste my time at there for few hrs...i morning really wake up late..woke up at 9.45am n called simon, he still at home...then change time to 11am...but dun know why i from 9.45am untill 11am still bathing.like laying egg like that.kaka!!!simon waited for me at there for 1hr...lolx...today dun know why so kachiong.keep on forget to bring thing...firstly i walk to mrt then found that i forget to bring wallet then run back to take...then after taken i was running to mrt again.halfway i suddenly remember forget to take sns clothes, then have to go back take again...then meet simon at 12 noon...lolx.waited for me for 2 hr...i at there standing since 12.35 like that ba...then went to have lunch, about 2pm i went back again n ask that idoit guard...but he keep ask me wait.dun know wait for wat...make me hot...hehe!! I called the hq office n ask, they sent some1 to fetch me...maybe i too tired ba.during my way to school i fall aslp on mrt...so long nvr slp so well le...actully everynight after i spray Rhinonort nasal spray, i will not be able to slp well...but no choice i have to spray everynight before slp...hope some1 hong me slp after i spray...after spray that feeling make me uncomforable n make me slp...but i like slp like nvr slp...my body was slping but my mind like cannot stop moving...haiz!!!that medical still got half bottle...


i get my result n shock, nvr think that i have so many 1 n 2 score...lolx...all pass too.hehe...went to sns after get result.return all the clothes n pass...then stay for awhile before leave...wanted to pass some thing to deb but she not coming.some other day meet then pass her ba...went for walk walk at there then went home watch some vcd n eat dinner...maybe deb was right i must bite and eat slowly...FAT FAT I WANT FAT...Can some1 give me some fat ??lolx...i wonder when i can go escape park before ns...sian still not buy some stuff for ns...go where buy sia...tml dun know want to do wat...haiz!!Watch my show again!!!NiteZ... Feel free to call me at night cause i cannot get slp...sure cannot slp.hong me slp ba!!!!