Past 2 weeks i being confine in camp for life firing and pissed off on the very first day...I never know that my new sgt dont trust what i told him...Make me so pissed off...I told him that my rifle is spoilt but he dont believe it and i have to use it in my atp rundown...So i failed la ok! In Camp training so shag yet fun with my buddys... Having fibua training was so fun, like playing counterstrike in real life...Haha!! I dont like my pc cause he break our promise... Dont allow me to go for my appointment... Today i went to nuh for my appointment and this was my first time for this appointment and i never know that i need to pray so much medicine into my nose so pain loh.. My tear just drop down by itself not i cry loh... then my nose and mouth was numb after praying that medicine... then i was shock when i saw that doctor taking out a long pipe with scope and wanted to put into my nose, that was so pain but i bite my teeth and let him put... after awhile he told me that my throat have growing somethings and need to have an operation to remove it... i was shocked and rejected him..cause i scare of needle...Haha!! but he say to me dont worry but he want me to take my medicine to control it then operation for me and wanted me to stop all my training in camp...How am i going to tell my ps, sgt and sir! anyway nvm la.. i went to ginza find brother-in-law but he working in the noon so i just buy my favourite milk and when i going off i saw deborah mum and her walking in...Haha!! But i just smile and walk away, not i want to dao u but after medicine my mouth was numb and throat is pain... so never say HI to U... Last night was feeling so down and went out for jogging... i plan to run to clementi if i can... But now i still cant.. only jurong east! Haha... Now going back camp le...Tomorrow have outfield, but i dont know want to go anot! how am i going to open up my mouth and say dont want...Haiz! Operation must be go on even i scare of needles...Haha! Past few days i was feeling very down and even sick... Now i not feeling well but i need to report back to camp..Haiz!! I get my poly letter le and being reject by them cause of my course not related...Haiz!! I thinking of giving up hope on it but during my bible study got this pastor say never give up anything easy or else u maybe regret someday.. So i want to appeal for it again... HAha!! He also say if your bible is clean mean u are not a clean christian, if your bible is dirty you r a clean christian...Haha! Mine was dirty..Lolx.. But this was just a joke...Hehe!