At last i on leave again, they return me 2 days as in mouth speak but only 1day half.. other half day they use it for my csb training which coming this monday and tuesday... I afraid that i cant pass that stupid saw rifle... so hard to strip it! like sar21 better..Haha! Route march coming too, this time is 24km route march at teklong island..Must sat ferry over there again, scared of seasick.. Haha!! I also afraid of route march too because of my health, recently i sleep very late and woke up very early cause at night i cant breath properly and have to use alot of force to breath and my chest very tight like something blocking my airway...Haiz! now waiting for my next appointment, have to do check up again... Hope won't use that medicine to numb me again and not that nasopharyngoscopy to poke into my nose to throat again!! Even with numb still can feel the pain...That time my tears in my eye was going to flow out from my eyes...Lolx! But not i crying if automatic flow out...Haha!! But i dont know whether i can go for my next appointment anot, My sir like dont want to let me go...He wanted me to complete that csb exam...But that unfair to me, i already told him that i have appointment on 17th march at 11am at nuh and he just take out my training programme sheet and see... Told me that i have some important training and may not be able to go for appointment, then i just huh! he say: you only have 2 choice, go with other company for that training on 9th april which is sunday or go on 19th april which is monday and my 2rd choice is change my appointment date but appointment date cant be change so easy mah... Have to see got place for me to change anot and the date is doctor fix one mah... somemore he give me medicine last me one month before i get to see him again...Haiz! but i remember he told me not to take part in any training but he never give me status how i stop my training..He just give me letter which i dont know what is written inside and i passed to my camp mo and my mo just write other letter and ask me to pass to my oc, i being confuse which all this passing why cant make it simple... But that letter from my camp mo i know what is written about..hehe i never look at but my oc told me about it, my mo want my oc to let me book out everyday and 8am-5pm or change my bunk... But now he still thinking and checking with my mo again... I still waiting for his reply...Haiz! My sir only give me this few days to think, but i dont know want choose which choice.. Can i have 3rd choice? Stressed! But if they keep on pushing me to my limit i afraid i may become crazy or just faint like that..Haha! But i told my uncle and he ask me to for my oc to reply then he decide what to do... Why dont just give me downgrade letter more faster and better no need to waste so much time on me... Sort of one won't die de mah..

Today i went to bank to do my debit card, at last i have my debit card...Haha! But still have to wait for 1 or 2 weeks to receive that card...Hehe! Wednesday i went to my aunty house and found out that my cousin is learning on piano keyboard and he bought 2 keyboard So my aunty ask me want to learn mah and she can give me 1 of the keyboard piano which was quite big... But i never reply her leh... I was thinking i got no time to pratice or learn, weekdays i was in camp and weekend i need to go for service and cellgroup meeting or bible study and follow on will be fellowship time... Maybe after my ord, 11 months more to go..Haha being counting it everydays... Edwin told me to plan for my future after my ord, actually i was planning to study at poly but just been rejected from them so i think i not studying first... Thinking of working for 1 year and save moneys, I wanted to open other account from ocbc bank to keep my saving and stop me from spending...Haha!! Then i go on for my study... Ermm, for car i think not so soon le.. Waiting for ken to take together, But i thinking what i want to work as after ord... Confuse too..Haha! Look like every little things i also confuse...Lolx! By the way Just now have dinner with ken, xiaoti and wen yong and we have some fellowship too and chat but hui si called me just now and want to meet this sunday noon with huixin and boi... ken and xiaoti dont wish to go meet them.. They not free, that what they told me to reply hui si. But for me i really cant make it.. i got cellgroup fellowship in the morning which i think is important to me, they want to play basketball but i dont know how to play even hurting my hand last time...Lolx! Was like dumb bear! Muhaha..

Yesterday i went to gym for awhile to have some exercise, too long never go le... Just awhile only and feel pain already... But still can get back the shape.Haha!! My sister just bought new drama vcd but i not yet seen it, i just watch other drama called My Family Which was very nice all about love story, maybe i copy that ray go learn baking cake and open shop...Haha!! Watch too much show liao... Oh that korean show little is Sad Story i heard from my sister is nice.. But no time to watch now... Maybe after my operation during my mc i will watch it ba! But i very scare of operation dont know i will be sleeping and they operate or i was awake and feel numb.. Scared of needles anyway...Haha!! Someone scold me just cause i scare of needles... Got any problem with it... Everyone have his own thing to scare mah.. You also scare of blood still dare to say me...Pig! Anyway scared... Later needle haven poke me i faint, can save medicine on me le.. Haha!!! Yeap haha! Tomorrow morning going to escape park with wen yong and his friends but i dont them yet! What to wear for tomorrow i still thinking about it, feel stressed and down for sometime during training or what my sir told me.. Tomorrow is my relaxed day hope everything will be fine and not raining too... Haha!! I remember first i went there i play pirate ship 6 time in a row and come down i vomit.. Haha! But never mind with 2B too.. Haha! At least got someone vomit with me so not so shy..Hah! This few days i try to call saengklai but her phone was cancel le and cant contact her anymore.. Dont know where to find her now.. Haiz! Sad Sad! :(( Hope she will called me... My sister want to go thailand soon with her boyfriend to shopping.. So I asked her to buy me some clothes... Haha! I want buy pant leh.. No pant to wear le! Lolx! Too poor to buy pant...Hehe!! Now already 4.30am le but i still cant get to sleep so i updating my songs, same problem chest tight and hard to breath but i used to it le.. I afraid i cant walk this 24km route march but if i never walk i must come back on saturday..haiz! Dont know what to do! Back to my song updating la better then thinking all this stupid stuff which make me feel stress... Haha! I must enjoy myself tomorrow..