On saturday went to field camp and i fall into a drain, very pain n my friends r laughing at me instead of helping me up... wearing new equir that look cool like those tv show those special forces...Lolx! Feel like one of them.. But quite heavy and very hot after wearing it... But look nice.. I took pic of it but lazy to post it la.. Maybe this friday then post it in my friendster. Being playing too much game and at last i am lvl 70 le.. Haha! I meet this girl who was 26 year old and jobless cause just quit, but quite good to me althought we know each other in game and never meet before or chat in phone... She was like my sister who taking care of me...Lolx! recently wei lun told me that he get downgrade letter le and i was like faints~ i waiting for so long n yet never get it.. Anyway i left 9 months 28days more to go.. Looking forward on that day! Lolx! But abilt sad and feeling down, my buddy going to leave me and i going to be left alone during training and feeling down cause i thinking when will i stop all my training.. I wanted to give up my CSB exam, but i now left with 24km, 32km route march n river crossing then i can get le but i feeling very stress and shagg... When ever i sick or not feeling well i alway have to keep quiet and hide it from everyone, if say out others will say why u alway sick or will say me chao keng..Haiz! Stress + shag.. Even training is very shag and i have to hold on to it untill it finish.. Like just now i from morning moving stores untill 8pm plus then went to bath before book out... Hardly find time to rest, i alway hoped that i will downgrade n my cells once told me to look forward and pray hard for it... So I never stop praying for it, Hoping to downgrade.. Tml i having 24km route march n honesty i afraid of walking it... I feel that no one is supporting me feeling so lonely and wanted to give up but when ever i think of ord date is drawing near me so i have to force myself to keep on walking toward it.. Ken at last falling in love again, xiaoti when is ur turn!! Dont give up or u will regret it, u now still got chance so just go for it age is not a matter if u really love her... For me i have no choice at all, i have to let my cellgroup leader know that i wanted to look for gf n even have to get approve by her before i can dating.. So i think will be hard for me and even approved i think i dont even have time for her.. Anyway i still cant forget her untill now and i never give up before, i once told her i will not give up on her de... So i waiting for my ord date... I make a very wrong moves at the first place n i regret it but all too late... sorry xxxxxxxxxx! Feeling very tired yet cant slp... I still thinking of what to do after ord whether i go work or study.. Sometime wei lun is down i have to keep his accompany n have to think of something to make his happy or can say dont let his think too much cause he alway worry everythings... But when i feeling down i dont dare to tell others but have to keep it myself cause i thinking everyone have their own problem if i keep sharing with them how r they going to takecare of their own problem.. I think there no one can help me and i have to help myself... Love is such a hurting matters.. But with someone sharing with u n chat with u everydays was such a loving matters.. I hope to be one of them! lolx! Give up on CSB or not giving up? Haiz, headache... Anyway hope that i still have chance to woo her... Right xiaoti n ken? support me right? Btw i wanted to invite friends to go celebrate easter day this saturday at expo... there will be drama which nice and touching.. Hope that u guys r going... calls me or messages me if u wanted to go...