Yesterday morning my dad wake me up at 5am to go back camp, But i taking off to prepare for operation on today operation at nuh... 8.30am will be operation le, i feel scared cause I scare my nose wll drop like jackson...Lolx! After wake up i went to bath and went back to sleep and my dad thought i went back camp..Lolx!! Today i being very slack just sitting around doing nthg not even training my favourite chara to lvl up...Haha!! Now planning to buy nice item for him, bidding that item but scare later i go for operation i will miss that claw currently 43m which i bid.. Just because the nick of that character i will give him the best/nice items..Lolx!! But lazy to play cause i being thinking of other things...worry about operation and feel like finding someone to chat with me but cant find.. I scare after operation i will be even more fatter so just now 6pm i went out for a run and went to buy my favourite milk now cant eat untill operation finish dont know wat time... My mind very messy and i keep thinking of her feel very sad!! HaiZ! Now a days i been sleeping very late cause i found some nice japan cartoon from scv chn 56 from 12might night to 1.30am 3 nice show... I love it! HIME ROX, ROCKMAN EXE ROX!! I saw HIME vcd at poh kim vcd shop but only have volume 1 and very expensive... Dont know got how many volume, i thinking of collecting it cause that show is Great and i love it too nice... Btw i load new song to my computer liao Yeah Jolin cai yi lin new album Nice, I like that Mr.Q!! Lolx..Tired! 6 Months more to ord date... Still haven plan what to do after that... Maybe working for few months before study... Alot of thing to buy but cant buy them as i wish. Now need to save money, i want to change phone and jie birthday is coming so plan to go out eat... Recently meet my cousin and found that he so dark and i so white i want suntan!!!! ARGG!!! My hair like being bomb i want get hair cut but not now cause i want keep long then cut... Scared of everythings... haiZ! Stage 2 coming soon and i dont wish to take part if can and going oversea soon...HaiZ!! Hate It... Faint~

Today went back to camp in the morning and i oversleep in mrt during the trip. So i was late... Then went for a run follow by some exercise then went to bath n slp..Haha, happy life right? But not even slp 15minutes all of us was being call down to attend talk by RSM.. Talking about the Atag stage one result, currently get grade one for all and i get 3 days off but dont know when then can get it la.. Training for stage two...Haha!! On Sunday I sleep untill very late about 1pm plus cause saturday night cant slp and slp at 5am., then i was late to meet my aunty and grandma they all.. Meeting me at bukit merah centre for lunch at HAM... While i cab down then reach there, got this old uncle sitting on wheele chair ask me can push him to his house then i was thinking r u joking with me? So i pity him that being left alone there so i push him to his house at blk 119 floor cant tell la... Was heavy, but i think is my problem that i so fat..Lolx! Soon after that i run back to there to find them and my aunty ask me to sat beside her she wanted to chat on something about me.. Asking me want to straighten my teeth anot la then ask about operation la...LolZ.. I also abilt scared..Haha! Then at my grandma house my aunty n grandma each person give me $50 dollar say that for me to wash away those bad luck things...Say that i went for operation that time then now give me red packet to wash them away.. Tml having outfield but i wont be going n taking off on wednesday too to prepare for thursday operation.. Now So tired untill wanted to fall a slp... I think i go slp first then blog tml night... Still need to go back camp tml morning at 5am...TIRED!!

Today went back to camp in the morning and i oversleep in mrt during the trip. So i was late... Then went for a run follow by some exercise then went to bath n slp..Haha, happy life right? But not even slp 15minutes all of us was being call down to attend talk by RSM.. Talking about the Atag stage one result, currently get grade one for all and i get 3 days off but dont know when then can get it la.. Training for stage two...Haha!! On Sunday I sleep untill very late about 1pm plus cause saturday night cant slp and slp at 5am., then i was late to meet my aunty and grandma they all.. Meeting me at bukit merah centre for lunch at HAM... While i cab down then reach there, got this old uncle sitting on wheele chair ask me can push him to his house then i was thinking r u joking with me? So i pity him that being left alone there so i push him to his house at blk 119 floor cant tell la... Was heavy, but i think is my problem that i so fat..Lolx! Soon after that i run back to there to find them and my aunty ask me to sat beside her she wanted to chat on something about me.. Asking me want to straighten my teeth anot la then ask about operation la...LolZ.. I also abilt scared..Haha! Then at my grandma house my aunty n grandma each person give me $50 dollar say that for me to wash away those bad luck things...Say that i went for operation that time then now give me red packet to wash them away.. Tml having outfield but i wont be going n taking off on wednesday too to prepare for thursday operation.. Now So tired untill wanted to fall a slp... I think i go slp first then blog tml night... Still need to go back camp tml morning at 5am...TIRED!!

Today went back to camp early in the morning and who know that in the morning there nothing to do so i can sleep for the whole morning, i was too tired due to late night and wake up so early... Maybe stay out is not that good for me but if dont stay out then i wont be doing wat i like to... In the noon time have this training call first aids cause following next day i have exam and very important... i was nervous and worry, but training half way i told my section command i will be away for mc on next thursday and he just simple pissed off and ask me why... then i told him that i going for my 2rd operation but he asked me to change the date cause next week got this outfield which is 4 days 3 nights and he say is a MUST to go, wat does it mean is a must to go... Did he think about my feeling before saying that... i bet no! Not long after that talk i being called to office and chat with my new pc which is going to be my pc in 1 month plus... he asked to change date too cause my sgt complain about manpower for outfield, but even i change date how long will i need to wait and if any happen to me who will answer for it... i being piss off when i heard this... he even asked me why monday i leave camp so early but i thought i told him i was going to sew my uniforms cause they changing new name tag n add on new thing to it... if found out that nvr sew on it i will be charged at least 3 xtra duty. Then after some time that sgt being called to office to talk too, at the very first place he dont want to listen to my explain and now he compain about me... 8-5pm wat does it really mean... wait for ro then go home or reach 5pm i can go home... Now due to compain from him i must wait for ro to be done before i go home... That idiot liek to do xtra work for this kind of things... i hate him! nvr even think for me, wat about me i being holding for so long n i very tired of it.. go outfield will shagg but for me is very very shagg... Not everyone can understand it... I just dont understand train is more important then my health so that they can do wat ever they like... I just dont wish to talk to him or can say lazy to talk to him... He is just care for hiself but wat about me i may have 3rd operation as my doctor told me... he dont even know wat that feel like after operation... think wat mc very gd after operation, i was the one suffing and not he the one...I started to feel very tired of wat they doing, even weilun also think of that way... only care for themself la!! idiotic... Anyway i left with 6months... Hope later wont fail that exam!

Since very very long i never blog, being busy training for stage 1 test but last month 30 june i just have an operation on my throat and on mc for 16days that was shiok to have such a long holidays...Lolx! During this mc days i been online everyday to read people blog and playing games... But Dont know why deborah blog cant read le so sort of 1 blog to read... ken have make up his choice to go ns first and me left with 7months more.. thursday i went to appointment at nuh for check up then he suggest me to have 2rd operation but this time on my nose...But i scare my nose will change shape...Then he say if change shape can do 3rd operaton to make back... but he say only very low % peoples willl get that.. still afraid!! Since 1month plus i never go church le... haiZ, when i see edwin i got nothing to chat with him anymore and i dont feel like meeting him but when i was i hospitalise qifang n zixiu come to visit me and qifang promise me not to tell edwin de but i still see him coming... I dont know what to say when i meet him... HaiZ!!! Just now Botak sister tell me from msn that she have bf le.. Haiz! Sad, heart broken... Still got 7 months more to go on... NS SUX!!! Now after ord want do what, study or work... 2 more week i going to take my 2rd operation le abilt scare and worry.. That time before operation they just wanted to inject for me i faint liao in the room... so shame!!! lolx!! Anyway most sad or heart pain is she have bf le... Haiz, monday going back camp le...Mc so long now dont feel like going back... HaiZ!!!! SAD!!! Who can comfort me??